31January 2016

What if….

January 31st, 2016|

This morning I was feeling especially “put upon,” full of self-pity, exhausted from a night of no sleep, tired of the daily grind that faced me again today. I exploded on everyone in my path, which sent them scurrying off mumbling, “What’s up with her?” which left me feeling alone, misunderstood and unloved. Ever been in that downward cycle?

Mercifully, I know that in times like these, I just need to get alone with God. But I wasn’t prepared for what He so clearly spoke to my heart.

“What if the one who needs a healing miracle is not Mary Addison (our […]

30November 2015

Becoming People of Peace

November 30th, 2015|

The post read, “We’re looking for people of peace to join us in this project.”

People of peace? What does that mean? Would I qualify? Am I a person of peace? Why a person of peace? What difference could that make as long as I’m qualified? But that was the only qualification. I was captivated and determined to know what a person of peace was and why that was so important.

I read that post over 30 years ago when I was young and starting out in the world, looking for my first “real” job. I quickly lost interest in “people of […]

13October 2015

Loving Hands

October 13th, 2015|

As caregivers, we can easily become overwhelmed because we believe it is our job to fix, heal, protect, comfort and sustain the person for whom we care. We may find ourselves in the role of primary caregiver, but the truth is, only God has the ability to fix, heal, protect, comfort and sustain the person for whom we care.

With all that we do, it is easy to feel like the full responsibility has been put on us, that we are in control. We bathe, feed, and transport – to doctor’s appointments, therapies, school, etc. We develop schedules to keep it […]

30September 2015

Back from the Brink

September 30th, 2015|

Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. Romans 12:12 

Easier said than done. We’ve been through a very dark time. Mary Addison has had seizures almost daily for 23 years, but recently, she would come out of seizures unable to walk, talk, even swallow. Just when she was making a little progress, another wave of seizures would hit, rendering her incapacitated again. We actually thought she’d had a stroke. Terrifying to say the least.

During this scary time, our regular caregiver had to leave us due to government red tape. So our normally active world shrunk down to […]

22September 2015


September 22nd, 2015|

Then he said to them, “My soul is overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death. Stay here and keep watch with me.” Matthew 26:38 (NIV)

Jesus’ words here resonate with me. There have been so many times when I just wanted to scream “I feel so alone! I can’t do this by myself.” I have a wonderful husband and loving friends, yet I can still feel so alone.

The key word here is “feel.”  Mary Addison’s seizures seem to have the power to consume me to the point of losing everything else – my identity, my social life, my health, etc.  […]

12August 2015

How To Love

August 12th, 2015|

“We love because He first loved us.”  1 John 4:19

Love can get so complicated. So much fear of giving love and losing a bit of ourselves if we get hurt. So much manipulation – I will love you so that you will love me. So much disappointment – You don’t love me enough.

Our daughter, Mary Addison, is mentally and physically challenged and she has shown me how to love.

One of Mary A’s favorite past times is to go to very busy places and say “Hi!” to people – total strangers. Her “Hi!” or “Hello!” is very exuberant and is often […]